depression can be costly

I’ve been spending a lot of money over the past few months. “Spending” may be my way of putting it lightly; my best friend would probably call it my “wasting” of money. I blame the awful weather for putting me in the winter blues, resulting in a credit card bill that I can now look forward to paying.

The past couple of days have been a bit of a blur. Vanesa and I had originally planned to hang out on Saturday night, but we later called it off due to her catching up of homework and my tiredness. I got home that night after work, settled in and was in the midst of checking my email when I dozed off on my bed. By the time I awoke, it was already 3am and had completely missed dinner. I closed my laptop and just continued sleeping.

It was a good thing I slept 12 hours that night. On Sunday, I worked at both my jobs because it was changeover weekend at Chapters. It’s been almost 2 years since I last did a Sunday night changeover and only did it because Kat was going to be out of town. I ended up working from 11am until midnight that day. 12 hours of sleep + 12 hours of work. I guess it balanced out in the end lol

I feel like I’m playing catch up everywhere I go. At home I’m trying to catch up on sleep. At work we’re still trying to finish up with changeover. We’ve got an overflowing desk full of books that are now stacked taller than me. Soon we’re going to have a tsunami of boxes around our desk as well. And poor Ann is out of commission due to her illness. So between Kat and myself, we have a whole lot of crap to deal with. It’s almost frightening.

Anyway, here’s some music for you:

i fell in love………………….kinda

Yay!!! …for an awesome week :)  After an entire week of feeling incredibly depressed and shutting myself away from the world, I finally crawled out of my shell. I forced myself out of the house on Tuesday to hang out with Vanesa. We spent a couple hours at Fairview window shopping, chatting, and people watching. It just felt good seeing the bestest.

In the evening, I met up with co-workers for dinner at Milestones – Empress Walk. Did I mention I fell in love that night? *blush* …just with a pair of eyes, that is. haha So I was telling the girls how the manager there was kinda hot and we’re checking him out from across the room. Minutes later, he comes over to apologize for the delay with our appetizers and meals (honestly, we were having such a good time that we didn’t even notice how long our food was taking). As he stood there talking, I couldn’t help but stare at his eyes lol They were gorgeous! Then to top it off, he said the wishlist (dessert menu) would be on the house! Wow!!! :D

Yup, those were the desserts that we didn’t have to pay for :) hehehe I had the White Chocolate Cheesecake. It was possibly one of the best cheesecakes I’d ever had. (Now I don’t know if it had anything to do with the fact that our wonderful manager brought it over for me *giggles*) We laughed over silly things and, by the end of the night, had found out the hot manager’s name. I guess that’s the wonderful thing about being young – being able to just have fun and do silly things like that lol Good times~

it’s been a horrible week

I mean…I’ve had bad days and really bad days, but this week probably topped it.

I’ve been having a problem with my ear.  Well, I really shouldn’t call it a problem; it’s more a discomfort.  I woke up Wednesday morning with this weird feeling in my right ear, kinda like the feeling you get when you’re decending on an airplane except sounds weren’t completely muffled.  I heard perfectly fine, but whenever I talked or moved my jaw I would hear these weird thumping noises (only in the one ear).  Any high pitched sounds (i.e. the tv, the banging of pots, pans, dishes, etc.) would irritate me.  Every now and then, I would feel the inside of my ear vibrating. I would have on-and-off headaches or feel nauseous from the imbalance. Basically I spent my days with my hand over my right ear. Believe me, it was pretty annoying.

After work on Friday, I decided to stop by the walk-in clinic in the mall to have my ear checked out. As I presumed, it wasn’t anything serious. It was merely an eustachian tube dysfunction. In other words, the tube that connects the ear to the nose wasn’t opening and closing properly, so air wasn’t passing through it as it should. There was no real reason why the problem occurred. According to the doctor, I was just congested inside (even though I wasn’t sick or anything). So he recommended I take Tylenol or Advil Sinus to decongest. And that was it!

Besides my ear being a total annoyance, I’ve been irritated about having to deal with another issue. I probably shouldn’t talk about it so publicly here. Let’s just say the situation turned from weird, to interestingly funny, to creepy, and now it’s almost frightening. All I can say is I’m trying my best to be more careful. That’s about all I can reveal right here.

I’ve been feeling kind of depressed after hearing about the current state of my two cousins. I’m not going to talk about it here either. I don’t really feel like flooding my blog with negative news. Hopefully things will take a turn for the better in the upcoming weeks. Once I have everything confirmed, I’ll have at least one piece of really good news to share real soon =)