it’s been a rough two week

I’ve been trying to update for days, but somehow my thoughts have been very stray. As if my thoughts were scattered in my head, it’s been difficult trying to express them in an orderly fashion.

After staying in bed all of last Tuesday and Wednesday with a fever, I was back on my feet on Thursday. I spent that morning cleaning and vacuuming my room. Then in the afternoon, I took advantage of the warm weather and spent a good 2 hours outside. I walked to my elementary school and sat on the bench at the playground. I needed some time alone to recollect my thoughts and to think over some issues. There were a few kids playing on the swings and a few running in the field. It felt nice just sitting there looking up at the clouds in the sky. Oh, how I wish I was a kid again.

In the midst of my thoughts, I got a call. It was Georgia and Omar, and they were heading up to Pacific Mall. Since they were already on their way to pick me up, I ran home and changed. It was a nice surprise to see the two of them that day.

Saturday night, I met up with Kevin, Winnie, Edison and Jacky for dinner up in Richmond Hill. It was great catching up with them since we haven’t seen each other in four months. After dinner, we went over to Jacky’s to play the Wii. Baseball was fun; Winnie and her home run, me and my killer pitches. Boxing was fun too, but it left my arms hurting after. Go figure, all 5 of us are in school this summer. I’m guessing it’s going to be a while before we all see each other again.

Sunday was Mother’s Day and I had to work until 4pm. I had intended on making my mom a fabulous dinner, but she was very understanding and insisted that I hold off on it. I ended up making her favourite pasta salad anyway, and since her birthday is this Friday, I’ll be cooking breakfast and dinner for her again.

Monday night, I met up with Georgia, Omar, Ron, Nicole and Andrew to execute our long awaited all-you-can-eat sushi dinner plan. We met up at Chapters just as Heather (CEO of Indigo/Chapters) was paying a surprise visit to our store. Omar laughed at me when he found me randomly re-doing an entire wall display that my manager left me alone with (even though I wasn’t even clocked in). Georgia, on the other hand, wasn’t very pleased about that. haha

We went to Aji Sai up in Thornhill. The food was good, but the service was pretty crappy. Their cheese wantons were really really good. Don’t ever try their fried banana dessert though. It’s not nearly as good as the ones you get at Yang’s on Hwy 7. We talked about our plans for the future and shared our thoughts on what we consider an ideal lifestyle and family. I think it’ll be really interesting to see how everything turns out for each of us. I’m sure it’s going to be nothing like what we expect. We had such a good time laughing over everything, including my squirting crab cakes. Or were they more like farting crab cakes?

I guess I’ve been quite overwhelmed since seeing the workload for my two courses, and I know that if I want to pass them both, I can’t allow myself to have an emotional burden. For the last four months, I’ve been speaking of the hollow feeling inside of me. I always knew it existed, but I never investigated what caused it and why it’s there. It’s time I have it figured out.

I’ve been talking things out with everyone, trying to resolve what I can. I don’t want to jump into any conclusions and I don’t want to alter anything. But for years I’ve neglected to seek closure in issues pending. Perhaps now is the time to finally close this chapter in my life so I can start with the next.

I’m excited for the future.

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